In Silent Talking, you explain how you were drawn into a world of psychological manipulation and abuse and how you were ultimately able to free yourself. What inspired you to share your experiences with others?

Well, I actually feel like a literary titan—having the courage to expose my story and bring my unheard of life out of the darkness and into the light. It has been a monumentally traumatic but healing journey, my soul has seemed to deem necessary! Every sentence was painful to bring onto the page. But the urge to do so prevailed. It was so overwhelming to face that in 2024, I published it in 32 pages and couldn’t iterate further. A year or so later, I began to flow more easily and filled in more details that were paining me inside to come out. I felt more healed and more able to emotionally observe from the outside and tell more, and revised and republished it in the 76-page edition it is today. It’s straight to the point and scopes the heart of 30 years. Unbelievable as I have faced—my trauma took my life—my entire adult life to face and overcome and return from. Exhausted now—I feel driven to make up for lost time, but realize that my life has become my story, and the time for both career and family with children has sadly passed me by. I’m finding more peace with that as my memoir takes flight and begins to validate my life—not what I wished to live—but what I did live instead. To further answer your question, the motivation to share came as an urge from my soul—a deep need to convey after bottling it in for 10 years, once I returned to the world.

I appreciate the candid nature with which you tell your story. Were there parts of your story that were especially difficult to put into words?

Yes, when I expanded the length of the book, much more was brought to the surface. Going into more nuanced detail about the brutality I faced in the presence of a single individual and remembering the experiences as if it were the very day, was soul-shaking. Talking more about their personality was especially traumatizing because I was drilled to keep their privacy. Keeping their privacy, I realized, was burying me alive. My first 32 pages quickly skimmed over these details and focused more on the kundalini channeling aspects versus the abuse that led me into that state.

Expressing took an actual additional year and nine months to be calm and strong enough to sit down again and expand on the narrative of my story. Albeit daunting—it was necessary to face for my personal healing, and I believe for the reader to have a whole understanding—especially as a life learning experience.

The memoir involves experiences you describe as supernatural or involving channeling. How do you interpret those experiences today?

Every individual has inherent psychic and extrasensory abilities, as all beings are one with the universe. Some people’s lie dormant their entire lives, some people know them young, and others seek to develop them later on in life. My memoir is about the experience of being forced to awaken your spiritual abilities through the experience of extreme psychological and physical hardship—where a ‘kundalini’ event manifests itself—opening your third eye. This involuntary ‘opening’ subsequently leads to the loss of one’s natural spiritual protection from ‘the other side’—I believe we are all born with.

There are many accounts of people being called to channeling or serving entities, as mentioned in my memoir. It is always presented in biographical and autobiographical nonfiction, where the channeler gives over their body as a vessel for the entities to take over and give health or spiritual messages to a client or to the world. No one discusses how the individual channeler lost their agency to these entities, and if it was truly their will. Everyone automatically accepts that that was a ‘good’ thing. But was that really the case? Because my experience with third eye openings and entity entrance into your body was not positive, it breaks open and sheds light on that that might not really be the case. This I now feel as my duty to convey.

When entities embody you, you feel obligated to serve them. I am working to strengthen and stand up for the rights of people who channeling has befallen, as Asian Shamans that are born into families for generations, that are forced to serve Deities through them and give readings to clients. Even if they are highly regarded and earn plus sums of money to give readings and perform rites—many shaman’s stories include the threat to parents from ‘the other side’ that their children will die young and must serve and become a shaman to live (the new South Korean reality TV series ‘Battle of Fate’ – can be watched on Hulu with English subtitles). Since my experience had no public virtue and I was literally frozen in my own body, I feel compelled to present my story and the awareness of an individual’s rights to agency inside their own body. I very carefully tread now to stay grounded, and it has caused me to isolate myself as much as possible. I am hyper-awakened and aware and gaining more insight daily.

What do you hope readers take away from your story?

I hope to enlighten readers to a new truth—an underlying theme between personal abuse leading to supernatural abuse. And that my emotional step-by-step account can relay a world of hidden undertow that all can benefit from being made aware of. I know no one has ever heard of psychic-spiritual abuse, and I am firsthand the testimony!

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