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Hasti Saadi Author Interview

White Jasmines follows a woman facing a profound personal crisis who engages in direct conversations with God, sending her on a deeply introspective journey confronting love, faith, and identity. What was the inspiration for your story?

The inspiration for White Jasmines came from a period in my life when the inner world felt louder than the outer one. I was watching how people, including myself, search for meaning when they feel lost—how we try to speak to something larger than ourselves when the usual language of life stops making sense.

I became fascinated with that private space where doubt, faith, love, and identity collide. The idea of a woman in crisis having a direct conversation with God allowed me to explore those questions with honesty and vulnerability. It wasn’t sparked by a single event, but by a long stretch of introspection, memories that resurfaced unexpectedly, and the desire to understand how we rebuild ourselves after being broken open.

The story grew from that silence, that questioning, and the need to give shape to emotions that often go unnamed. It became a novel before I realized it—almost like the dialogue had been waiting for someone to write it down.

Are there any emotions or memories from your own life that you put into your character’s life?

Yes, there are emotions and memories from my own life woven into the character’s journey, though never in a literal or autobiographical way. I drew from moments when I felt untethered, when life asked questions I wasn’t ready to answer. Those private experiences—grief, uncertainty, the search for meaning, the ache of longing—helped me understand her inner landscape more honestly.

Some memories, even small ones, left echoes that shaped how she thinks and feels. The way she notices silence, the way she questions love, the way she rebuilds her faith—those elements grew from my own reflections during challenging periods.

While the character is not me, the emotional truth behind her struggles and transformations is deeply personal. I used those memories as a compass, guiding me toward a story that felt authentic rather than imagined from a distance.

What were some themes that were important for you to explore in this book?

Several themes guided the heart of White Jasmines. I was drawn to the tension between faith and doubt—how both can coexist inside one person, and how questioning can sometimes be its own form of belief. The book also explores the fragility of identity, especially when life forces us to confront the parts of ourselves we try to avoid.

Love, in all its complicated forms, was another essential theme. Not just romantic love, but the quieter forms: self-love, forgiveness, and love that persists even after disappointment.

And finally, I wanted to explore transformation—the slow, often painful process of breaking and rebuilding. The 40-day dialogue with God became a way to examine how someone can return to themselves with new clarity after facing the hardest truths.

Those themes together naturally, creating a story that sits at the intersection of introspection, spirituality, and emotional honesty.

What is one thing you hope readers take away from White Jasmines?

If readers take one thing from White Jasmines, I hope it’s the understanding that their inner struggles are not a sign of failure but a passageway to gaining deeper self-awareness. The book invites readers to sit with their doubts, heartbreaks, and questions without rushing to hide or fix them.

I want readers to feel that even in moments of loneliness or confusion, there is meaning to be found—sometimes quietly, sometimes unexpectedly. If the story gives someone a little more compassion for their own journey or reminds them that transformation often starts in the most uncertain places, then it has achieved what I hoped for.

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After a lifetime of disillusionment with love, a woman’s beliefs are shattered by a profound personal crisis. In her despair, she engages in a direct and starting conversation with God, challenging the nature of existence, loneliness, and faith. This philosophical journey culminates in an unexpected pact: forty days to rediscover love and meaning alongside the divine being she has come to question, forcing her to confront her brokenness and find a new way to live.
As her days become part of a greater spiritual plan, her ordinary experiences take on new meaning and significance. She reflects deeply on her daily life, imagining God present in her moments and narrating her philosophical perspectives on life, death, and love. Through her narratives, she intertwines philosophy and poetry, questioning love and creation in search of understanding, even regarding the Lord of the Universe. She engages in deep, intimate dialogues with God, inviting Him into a profound challenge while liberating herself from her pain and sorrow. In turn, God grants her life new meaning by revealing His presence in the beauty of nature. By recounting her memories, she frees herself from her previous world and enters a new realm within herself, which she expresses poetically. The book consists of an introduction followed by forty days of narration, telling the story of a Sufi in love who liberates herself from her past and enters a world of light and inner peace, envisioned for the reader in a dream-like manner.

White Jasmines

White Jasmines is a poetic, spiritual, and deeply introspective journey through the soul of a woman confronting love, faith, and identity. The book unfolds like a diary of divine conversation, tracing forty days of communion between a narrator and a presence she perceives as God. It drifts between prose and poetry, dream and revelation, exploring themes of solitude, womanhood, and transcendence. The story begins with heartbreak and the collapse of faith, then moves through cycles of pain and renewal. What begins as an inward cry slowly transforms into a meditation on existence itself.

Hasti Saadi’s writing doesn’t just describe emotions; it breathes them. Her words rise and fall with the rhythm of confession. The imagery of seas, skies, the Virgin Mary, rain, and jasmine feels alive, wrapping each page in tenderness and melancholy. The tone wavers between gentle surrender and fierce rebellion, as though the narrator keeps arguing with God but never stops loving Him. The sincerity behind each line hit me.

There were moments when the prose turned heavy, circling the same questions of pain and faith. Still, it’s part of what makes the book powerful. It mirrors the way grief and longing echo in real life. I admired how Saadi wove philosophy and personal reflection without sounding like she was teaching. Her honesty about doubt and divine loneliness was what struck me most. She doesn’t try to explain life; she feels it raw and lets it spill. The tenderness in her language reminded me that even despair can be beautiful if faced with courage.

I’d recommend White Jasmines to readers who crave depth and aren’t afraid of introspection. It’s for those who’ve loved fiercely, questioned their faith, or felt unseen. It’s not a book you read quickly; it’s one you sit with, letting its quiet questions linger. It’s a spiritual mirror for anyone ready to look closely at the mess and mystery of being human.

Pages: 220 | ASIN : B0FRJDTTTC

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