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Emotional Isolation Within Families

John David Graham Author Interview

Running As Fast As I Can follows a teenage boy living in an abusive home who runs away trying to find someplace safe, and people he can call family. What was the inspiration for the setup of your story?

Obviously, all good fiction starts in some reality. When I founded Good Samaritan Home 22 years ago, my intent was to help men and women coming back from prison restart their lives. But the one constant theme I heard was they all came from broken and often abusive homes.

Although not as intense, my experiences growing up were similar to theirs. I think Daniel said it best, “I shared space with people called family. We had the same address, ate at the same table, even had the same last name, but we were strangers. We all lived alone together.” I believe this emotional isolation within families can be as destructive as any physical abuse—and I wrote Daniel’s story through that lens. That’s why I call this “everyone’s story.” I believe there are many people who come from the same haunted background as me. We just hide it better than my Good Samaritan Home residents.

The bottom line is everyone is looking for a second chance. It was that theme that I tried to convey through all the characters in my book.

Your novel brings the characters to life, all the pain and hurt, as well as the moments of joy. What was your writing process to ensure you captured the essence of the characters?

I started with a very rough outline 10 years ago, but the actual story evolved and grew as I wrote it. Or more accurately, as the characters revealed themselves. Initially, the primary characters such as Daniel, Elizabeth, and Kate, were two-dimensional, flat, without any real personality. Beta readers couldn’t feel them, and therefore, they couldn’t identify with them. Part of the problem was my background. My academic training, and especially my years as a journalist, taught me to present the facts—who, what, when, where, and how. Never introduce emotion into a story. That’s fine for a research paper, but it doesn’t read well as a novel. Finally, my editor suggested—more like demanded—that I allow my emotions to come out in the characters—to show them as real people who struggled with insecurities, doubts, and fears through their actions. That made a significant difference in the emotional intensity of the story. But it was when I applied that same approach to all the supporting characters, like Doc Samuels, Ruthie, Sister Rose, James and Elijah, Daniel’s three kids, and especially Charles, that’s when the story really came alive. But that was no easy process. It took seven years and more than twenty drafts, adding 50,000 words to the manuscript, I might add.

What were some themes that were important for you to explore in this book?

Initially, it was a story of a boy growing up in a dysfunctional family, but that soon evolved into sexual abuse as the church sex scandals came to light. The common thread seemed to be vulnerable kids in broken families looking for adult attention. They were easy prey—just like Daniel. But what we never knew was what happened to these kids afterward. How do they function normally as adults when they have been so damaged as children? I call it “broken from birth.”

It’s like Somerset Maugham’s character Philip Carey in Of Human Bondage. He was born with a club foot, and he spent the rest of his life struggling to be normal—physically and emotionally. And that was Daniel. He was born with an emotional club foot, from a mother and father who ignored him and a pastor who abused him. He limped through the rest of his life, and the insecurities, and especially the false sense of shame and guilt that always accompanies child sexual abuse, affected every relationship, every choice he made.

That internal struggle led Daniel into a world he never imagined possible, like destructive relationships, depression, poverty, homelessness, and addiction. However, the key theme that arises out of all this is second chances. But not some simplistic just-say-no, come-to-Jesus solution that seems made for television. Real life is messy, with a lot of mistakes, and lots of do-overs. Too many of us have started so far behind, and with so few tools, we don’t know how to start over. All we know to do is to go back to the same destructive relationships, making the same wrong choices over and over. But the key theme here is that we keep trying, keep starting over, and never quit running.

That said, the one subtle theme that emerged was that our salvation often comes from unexpected sources. All the people who helped Daniel learn to walk normally were broken in their own way—like Doc Samuels, Elijah, James, Sunshine and Mellow, even Father Webber. And the one person who was most instrumental in helping Daniel through his greatest crisis was Charles. Daniel said it best. “I had degrees in both psychology and theology, but this guy who could barely read, and who’s been in prison all his life, knew more about forgiveness than me.” I remind myself of this periodically with the men and women I deal with at Good Samaritan Home. No matter how damaged they may be, no matter what crime they may have committed, they are still part of God’s fallen creation, and I can still learn something from them. Maybe that’s why I sometimes tell people I feel safer in prison with these guys than I ever did in a church board meeting when I was a pastor. In prison, everyone admits they are a sinner. In church, we just hide it better.

What is the next book you’re working on, and when can your fans expect it out?

It’s called Requiem. It means a Mass of remembrance for the dead. In Running As Fast As I Can, there is a 30-year gap between the last chapter and the epilogue. Requiem is the story about what happens to all the remaining characters. Spoiler alert—a main character dies tragically at the end of Running. How do the remaining characters adapt—or not adapt—to that death? But this time I am looking at bringing in a political thriller element as Daniel finds evidence that this death may not have been accidental. And that leads him all the way to Washington for his answers. But I still want to maintain the same intense emotional storyline of Running As Fast As I Can. This time, however, I don’t plan on spending ten years writing it. I hope to have it completed in a year.

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Growing up in the mill slums surrounding Pittsburgh, all that Daniel Robinson ever wanted was a family who loved him. Instead, he was ignored by a mother who hid in her room praying to an unseen God, and a drunk for a father who used everyone as a punching bag.

He thought he found love in college with Elizabeth. But she dropped him as soon as someone “with better prospects” came along. Daniel spends the next ten years wandering the country throughout the turbulent 1960’s, desperate to find someone who didn’t care about money and would love him as he is. While traveling he gets caught up in the hippie drug invasion in San Francisco, racial violence in Cleveland and Detroit, and especially a deadly anti-war protest at Kent State.

Ultimately, he does find that love in Ruthie, a salt-of-the earth Ohio farm girl and her family who welcome him as one of their own. Marriage is expected—until Elizabeth resurfaces and seduces Daniel with false promises of love.

Daniel loses Ruthie, his job, and nearly loses his mind over what he has done to Ruthie. He again goes on the road, but he is only going through the motions—what he calls “a dead man walking.” Daniel loses hope he will ever be happy—until he meets Kate Fitzgerald, who was running from her own demons. Together they get a second chance at love and the family they both want.

Daniel is now determined, with Kate’s love and support, that his new family will be different than the abusive home he came from, but can he ever run far enough to leave behind his haunted past? Because of his experiences with street people, he is offered a job helping men coming from prison. When asked to find housing for Charles Vickers, a black man who spent twenty years in prison for a rape Daniel is convinced he never committed, he and Kate open their own home to him. This enrages the community, especially when a local girl disappears. Violence erupts—with Daniel as the focus of their rage. Should he stay and fight for Charles—and put his family at risk, or run away again?

Daniel’s story, with its harrowing social themes, conveyed through an intense personal odyssey, bridges the gap between literary and commercial fiction. It would be enjoyed by readers who were moved by the heartbreaking, yet hopeful narratives of Forrest Gump and Where the Crawdads Sing. RUNNING AS FAST AS I CAN vividly portrays a traumatic period in our history, while grappling with intense emotional and social issues we still face today.

It is an epic journey for love and forgiveness. Most important, it is a page-turner story that readers will identify with because it is, on some level, everyone’s story.

Running As Fast As I Can

Running as Fast as I Can by John David Graham is an evocative novel set in the Midwest during the turbulent 1960s. The story follows the protagonist, Daniel Robinson, through a difficult childhood marked by an abusive father and a mother grappling with mental illness. Seeking an escape from this oppressive environment, Daniel leaves home at 16, initially finding refuge with a sympathetic pastor. This sanctuary is short-lived, however, as a betrayal by the pastor sets Daniel on a challenging path of self-discovery and belonging.

Graham paints a vivid picture of Daniel’s disillusionment with the religious institution he once turned to for solace. The narrative is enriched by the array of characters Daniel meets — some offering wisdom and support, others struggling themselves, yet all contributing to his growth. The central theme of constructing a chosen family comes to fruition when Daniel meets Kate Fitzgerald, with whom he endeavors to build the nurturing home he always longed for. Yet, a lingering question persists for the reader: Can Daniel truly free himself from the shadows of his past?

John David Graham’s writing is impressive, characterized by meticulous planning and skillful character development. His attention to detail creates immersive scenes, bringing the characters’ emotional journeys to life. The reader is drawn into Daniel’s world, sharing his pain, understanding the complexities of overcoming trauma, and witnessing his efforts to find love and acceptance. The novel is not without its familiar tropes. One particular instance where Daniel confides in his mentor, Doc, echoes a memorable scene from the film “Good Will Hunting.” While this similarity may detract from the novel’s originality, it does not significantly diminish the overall impact of Graham’s storytelling.

John David Graham has written an emotionally charged story that delves into the themes of resilience, belonging, and the importance of human connection. The story follows Daniel through personal struggles and challenges, discovering the true power of perseverance and human relationships. This story is a poignant reminder of the importance of finding one’s place in the world. Overall, Running as Fast as I Can is a must-read for anyone looking for a heartfelt and inspiring tale of triumph over adversity.

Pages: 466 | ASIN : B0CKK418FB

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A Happier, Wider State of Mind

Jean L. Waight Author Interview

The River Beyond the Dam: Shooting the Rapids of Progressive Christianity: A Memoir shares with readers your journey looking for a church that breaks from traditional dogma and focuses on being better community members and climate activists. Why was this an important book for you to write?

In a word, I couldn’t find anything like it. I stumbled into a progressive church almost by accident, encountering an old strand of Christianity so unlike the Christianity I knew (and had rejected) that it blew my mind. Why didn’t I know about this before? The only books I could find along this line were by religious professionals—clergy, theologians—exactly the kind of book I would never have picked up after rejecting the faith.

Yet my new experience was not simply an interesting discovery I wanted to share—it was changing deep thought habits in me. I had an American habit of judging others, of turning sour when disappointed, and trying to live as a modern person, one who sweeps away various disappointing heritages. And these narrowing habits were being replaced by—can I say it? A happier, wider state of mind.

I thought maybe a personal memoir, with a regular person’s findings of what church can be in this real world of ours, might reach and surprise general readers, especially those who, like me, had thrown out the baby with the bathwater.

What were some ideas that were important for you to share in this book?

I wanted to encourage a deeper look at the common conclusion that we would “be better off without organized religion,” even though I tended to agree with some of that, about hidebound religion. I wanted to see if I could get beneath the accrued barnacles of social control that put a few white males on top and get a look at the magnificent whale beneath those metaphorical barnacles. Just as important, I wanted to challenge the idea that, in spiritual matters, solo traveling is essentially the same as traveling with a community. Last, that churches can help pull together responses to the interconnected challenges of our time.

I appreciated the candid nature with which you told your story. What was the hardest thing for you to write about?

Yowza. I was sorely tempted to exclude some of the personal stuff, like my silly overreaction to getting testy at the council meeting. As a worrier type of introvert, I would have liked to keep the personal at arms-length from the discoveries I wanted to talk about. But something told me to bite the bullet—that the story required I get real, get personal.

What is one thing you hope readers take away from your story?

Whether or not you choose church for yourself, I hope that in your activism, whether on the environment or on race and gender equality, you will be open to finding allies in unexpected places. And that your daily life becomes happier.

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A modern, ex-Christian, tree-hugging American woman comes up against a strange wish for church–but only if it could be radically different from what she’s known. It would have to be one steeped in women’s equality and freedom of thought. Unexpectedly, she finds herself on a journey like a canoe trip. The journey will heal her past, widen her present world, and offer hope for the future. Guided by her experiences in river canoeing–navigating the river, learning its currents, and riding its sparkling energy–her story unfolds through twelve years of pointed questions, congenial fellow travelers, and zesty discoveries.
She experiences firsthand what she cannot get from a solo journey, including what it is to support Native Americans, and how Black womanist theology can make her a better white ally of Black women. Paddling the river, she is helped around fallen trees of biblical mistranslation and anti-woman dogma. After a cold-water crash, she repairs her canoe and emerges joyful again with a new, more flexible strength. Looking ahead, she follows clues about how the river is changing other churches–renewing and making them better neighbors and climate activists.

The River Beyond the Dam: Shooting the Rapids of Progressive Christianity

Growing up, going to Church was just something I had to do. I did not really understand the purpose, as my mother would drop me off for Sunday school and mass while she went for coffee and bagels with friends, only to return to pick me up. Church was an obligation, and as I grew older, I questioned more and more about it, drifting further off and away. Much like Jean Waight’s canoeing analogies, I felt stuck on a rock or headed for waters that just were not part of the enjoyable experience I had heard about and hoped for. I never felt the close-knit family and support system that everyone told me Church should be. As I grew older, my distrust and dislike for patriarchy and intolerance of LGBTQ+ issues caused me to drift further away from Christianity.

One of the first things readers will notice is the woodblock prints that open each chapter. They are like a small window into what is to come. Reading Jean Waight’s memoir, The River Beyond the Dam: Shooting the Rapids of Progressive Christianity, I felt like I was talking to a friend, someone who really got what I was thinking when it came to Church. Her blunt and direct approach to sharing her story was inspiring. In her book, she reminds readers what the real purpose of community is. It is not sitting in a building singing hymns; it is coming together to improve the community by buying diapers for those in need or taking on the coal industry standing with the Lummi. She does not just accept that men take leadership roles in the Church; instead, she brings feminism to the forefront of the discussion, saying it isn’t enough just to have women in leadership roles; they need to actually be treated as equals and allowed to hold leadership positions over men. Jean actively questions the dogma surrounding religion and holds those around her to higher standards, not settling for the status quo.

The River Beyond the Dam is not a book that readers can pick up and read cover to cover. If they do, they are missing a great deal. Each chapter is a chance for reflection and unpacking preconceived notions. Jean references multiple resources, providing insights that back up her thought process. Providing a full bibliography at the end of the book allows readers to continue their own research and personal journey after reading this memoir. For those who feel the Church is a lost cause, her story offers a glimmer of hope, a chance that, while slow, change can come if enough people put in the work.

Pages: 247 | ASIN : B0C2BGC4N9

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