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What I Tell Myself

Michael Brown Author Interview

Michael Brown Author Interview

What I Tell Myself FIRST provides readers with an excellent source of support as questions and self-doubt arise throughout early childhood. Why was this an important book for you to write?

A: I am not an author by trade. I became one by trauma. I am the product of child abuse. The reasons? I still couldn’t tell you what I had done to earn physical chastisement. Usually, children remember some of the things they did to earn punishment. I don’t. I then began to hate my mother. I never understood, as most children don’t, why a mother who is supposed to be your guardian would physically chastise me like she did. I then began to run away into the arms of my grandmother.

Growing up, I would move between my mother’s and grandmother’s homes from time to time. In both homes, my brother, sister, uncle, and I went to various churches. As time passed, my mother inherited property as a result of my great-grandmother’s death. My mother appeared to have been fascinated with the church, as is the tradition among African Americans to have either been born into Christianity and attend church or seek Christianity, its assistance, and fellowship in a time of need. A building plan was finalized and donations were being solicited from the church members to erect it.

My mother, believing bigger giving equaled bigger and faster lottery-like blessings, refinanced her inherited property, being our residence. She then donated over 85% (approximately $30,000) of the finances from the loan to the church. The building would never be built. Her donation and neglect of the duties for which the funds were acquired resulted in foreclosure of the property and us being in a homeless state, with mother never to question the disposition of the donation or demand its return. Why did a mother with children do such a thing? The need for assistance and association in time of need, I would later learn, is the doorway by which some self-proclaimed pastors capitalize on those in said state to acquire, among other things, monetary donations while delivering spiritual stimulation as the payback. Mother gave all selflessly for the promise of earthly riches that would never come. She passed in 2018.

Fast-forwarding to late 2019, I was helping an anger management client with issues related to her anger. In doing so, I learned that a great percentage of anger happens when childhood voids, created by broken parents, are imparted in children thereby continuing to reside in now-anatomically/statutorily mature adults. These voids are the motivations for the often ill-prepared or toxic choices we make as adults. This would be the revelation I would learn in the wake of mother’s passing: those who seek to use you will spot your voids and capitalize on them for their own gain. I then could not continue to hate my mother for the pain she caused, for I now knew the motivation which influenced her choices. She was broken. As a result, I became broken. I then loved her again. I understood her. I then set out to find solutions to change what parents don’t do and what children don’t know: how to address the real world and prepare for the inevitable to achieve self-actualization. I always heard of affirmations. Plenty of books have them, usually filled with “I am” this and that. But they leave out the real-world attacks that parents know are coming. They hide the truth from our children.

I loved the art in this book. What was the art collaboration like with Zoe Ranucci to create the look for this book?

Zoe was amazing. Her artwork and customer service was unmatched. It was like a friend. She provided me some guidance when I needed it. And when she didn’t like some things (not with the work per se, but the publishing company I was going to go through, she voiced her professional opinion which was the impetus to get me to look over the contract again. That was an excellent move. She was and is amazing.

I thought that this book is a great way to have conversations about self esteem with children. What do you hope readers take away from your book?

I hope they take away from this book a greater understanding of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and positively self-actualize into our best self. If the needs in Maslow are not met, we become fixed at that need until the need is met. Parents, don’t lie to your child. Parents who do this are concerned with how they look in the eyes of their child. The lying parent sees the child as their friend, not their child. You can’t protect your child from a void you haven’t protected yourself from. Your experience is the master class. You are the master teacher. Expose your past to save them from a past and yourself from a future occurrence. Ask any doctor. There must be some infliction of pain in medical operations to cause healing. Not every pain can be numbed. Even numbed, when you wake up in recovery, you will feel it. Pain precedes most healings and recoveries. What you reveal may hurt your children. But the lessons you will have taught them from the revelation, likened to the rung bell that can be un-rang, will be etched in their mind when you are no longer around and that lesson appears at their feet. They can’t dodge the bullet you neither told them was coming, nor bulletproofed their mind towards repellency and rebounding.

What is the next book that you are working on and when will it be available?

What I Tell Myself is a series. FIRST is the foundation upon which the other books will be written. I will keep expounding on Maslow, for educators know all too well, “In teaching, you can’t do the Bloom (Bloom’s Taxonomy) stuff until they do the Maslow stuff.” – Alan E. Beck. Individual characters have names and adventures that will be Maslow-focused. I have already penned two books currently in editing and illustration. The titles are What I Tell Myself: About Self-Protection, What I Tell Myself: About Talent and What I Tell myself: About NO!

What I Tell Myself: About Self-Protection gives children various options for protecting themselves. It is powerful. I read it and feel empowered! I raise my children not to be victims. I want my readers, both parent and child(ren), to avoid victimization. I like active books that give solutions. I want my books to be roadmaps for action. In life, actions get things going. Let’s cry silently along the way. But, get off the “X”. I guess that is the military/police officer in me.

What I Tell Myself: About Talent explores the inquisitive mind of a child who wants to be everything and anything at the same time. Keeping with the page in What I Tell Myself FIRST, “I am great at some things…” a child told me he didn’t know what he liked to do. Lightbulb. Stay tuned.

What I Tell Myself: About NO! helps children understand the importance of hearing the word NO and its importance in our lives. Children who can’t take No become adults who can’t take rejection. And if what it is true about failure being a part of success if we learn from the failure, understanding rejection is tantamount to that lesson.

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What I Tell Myself FIRST: Children's Real-World Affirmations of Self Esteem by [Brown, Michael]Written by a US military veteran, this children’s book, based on Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs, will instill in children the answer to bullying, body-shaming, hate, and attacks on the self through daily affirmations. Author Mike Brown has learned many life lessons and hopes to convey some of those lessons acquired from public and private service in the Army, as a police officer, an anger management specialist, nonviolent crisis intervention instructor, educator, as well as the real-world wisdom accumulated so far, to everyone that reads this book. Teaching a sense of self-love as well as self-acceptance and giving a framework for both parents and children to help build their lives into sturdy and happy homes is his goal. What I Tell Myself FIRST: Children’s Real-World Affirmations of Self Esteem is to readers what the AED is to a heart: it instills the defibrillator of self-esteem so powerful for when times are tough and your mind is under attack. Mike hones in on his military past and the methodology behind why servicemembers say creeds in various forms and military occupational specialties. This book will serve its purpose not for when times are good. But for when times are bad, when one is on that dark road and it feels like no one is there. It will serve as the proverbial jump pack to the battery of the mind. Like the hug that you needed but did not get. Like the words you needed to hear but did not hear. This book of reality-based daily affirmations are the “I wish I had this” of books. We MUST instill in our children the answer to bullying, body-shaming, hate, and attacks on the self through daily affirmations.

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At Best, They’re Tolerated

Chelsea Britain Author Interview

Chelsea Britain Author Interview

Cuttle follows Nora, who struggles with her own overwhelming thoughts day in and day out while navigating romantic relationships. What was the inspiration for the setup to this heartfelt novel?

With a few amazing exceptions, I think people like Nora on the autism spectrum are a little underrepresented, and sometimes misrepresented, in novels that focus on relationships. Even many well-meaning writers present non-neurotypical traits as something to be overcome, and it’s difficult to read these as fully realized characters. At best, they’re tolerated, and at worst, they’re confused with narcissists or people who are incapable of empathy.

So I’ve never really felt like these stories were for me, and this seems wrong, because people on the spectrum certainly have all these experiences—our lives are full, too, of decisions about things like work and friendships and romantic relationships. My intention with Cuttle was to offer at least one slightly different perspective. Nora’s not a traditional romantic or “chick lit” heroine, but I hope some people can relate to her experience and see this demographic as capable of engaging in happy, fulfilling relationships.

Nora is a unique character that posses INTJ personality traits. Why did you want to explore these personality traits in your story?

I think INTJ’s are actually a little overrepresented right now in pop culture. So many of the amazing psychological thrillers published in the last handful of years really lean into their INTJ villains, and the most recent article I read about INTJ relationships focused on how to identify if you’ve inadvertently found one of us and safely get out of the relationship. INTJ’s make the best Hannibal Lecters, Professor Moriarties, and Emperor Palpatines.

…But most of us aren’t really take-over-the-galaxy kinds of people. I wanted to bring up Nora’s “type” because it’s mentioned so much less often to describe scientists, entrepreneurs, artists, and any number of other not-eating-people paths like Nora’s. Nora talks a lot about her “choosing” times, and most INTJ’s choose not to become sociopaths; Sherlock Holmes is an INTJ, too, and we also claim people like Nicola Tesla, Steven Hawking, and Jane Austen.

I enjoyed the supporting characters in this novel, and Nora’s relationships were always interesting. What were some themes you wanted to capture in their interactions?

I think one of the biggest challenges for all of us is finding our “tribe”–people who simultaneously accept us as we are and support our (healthy) growth. I used to think tribe-finding was a life stage, but now I think we’re always finding and updating our tribes as they grow with us.

Nora has a diverse tribe that’s really important to her but, like everyone, she spends a lot of time trying to distinguish between even well-meaning influences that hold her back and those which challenge her in positive ways. Characters like Heather and Lillie are able to expand their conception of Nora’s capacities with Nora, for instance, but the Milners of her life obviously need to go.

When and where will Cuttle be available?

Cuttle will be available September 1, 2020 through Amazon, Apple, Barnes and Noble, Kobo, and other ebook retailers. Paperback, hardback, and large print copies will be distributed by Ingram.

 

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The Truth That Frees a Human

Amar B. Singh Author Interview

Amar B. Singh Author Interview

The Third showcases the unique and stunning mind of Aryan and follows him through the trials of his life. What was the inspiration for this thought-provoking novel?

The inspiration for the book was the realization of the fact that human life eventually is about sorrow unless the human being corrects his misplaced identity in his body and mind. Directly or indirectly, the cause of all sorrow is the unconscious realization by us that we are limited beings and that there will be an end to us, the way we think we are. This is also inspired by my personal focus on the fact of human conditioning, the myth of decision making, will vs fate deciding our life, surrender vs struggle as a way of living, among other things…

Aryan represents the common man except that to highlight the point above, he has been portrayed as a brilliant mind capable of handling any difficult situation which can be handled by the intellect. He represents the mind taking charge of the self while the narrator is the soul or the higher self who comes in to point out to the mind the fact that he is essentially limited and should know his role in the whole story of life. That’s the truth that frees a human being.

Aryan is an intriguing and well developed character. What were some driving ideals behind his character development?

Aryan’s character development had to have the point that he was an exceptional mind who was observant enough to notice why his life was going wrong. He therefore, tries a thousand things as the mind does in any given situation. He succeeds in several situations but eventually has to find out the thread he has been hanging from. The fact however, is realized later – that only when the mind, which is no more than a collection of thoughts inspired by memories, gives up having seen the uselessness of itself and its thoughts, does it become open to seeing what really is – the existential appears and the psychological disappears.

This could not have been done without the mind trying its hardest and given up. The point being made by his turning to addictions even with all successes, which in fact, is another way of release from the mind but that’s essentially going below the mind, not beyond it.

I enjoyed the poetry sprinkled throughout the book. Was this poetry you wrote separate from the book or did you write it for the story?

Thanks. I am glad you liked those. The story has been in the making for a decade. I had written pieces of the story and the poetry to go with it and only a few of those appear in the book. The story continues in the next book which is a sequel to this.

What is the next novel that you are working on and when will it be available?

I am working on the sequel to this story of The Third. The prodigy of Aryan will have a lot to choose from as he gets to a self-realized/ enlightened state while it will be difficult for him to communicate his point of view to others as the magic realism is considered pure fantasy by others. So, Aryan will choose what he does with his life and how the other participants in his life are helped by him, if at all. The story also hopefully, continues to help unravel the wisdom in the scriptures with such powerful one-liners as “I, myself, am God!”

I am hoping the book is available by April this year.

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If there was one root cause of all the pains in this world that all living beings go through, would we not want to solve that forever and live in bliss and peace. We invent the Superman and the Iron Man for the same reasons that we invent Gods but we ignore the fact that our pursuit is on the path to failure because we have forgotten who we are!The problem with finding that out is that we use the wrong tool, the wrong measurement instrument. The human mind is as useless in the discovery of the root cause of all human miseries, as a 6-inch scale ruler in measuring the height of the Himalayas.Aryan, the prodigy, the man of iron will, goes down the same path of ruin until he experiences this miracle that ends him…

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Rootstock Saga

L.H. Leonard Author Interview

L.H. Leonard Author Interview

Legend of the Storm Hawks is a intriguing start to your Rootstock Saga, weaving multiple story-lines into one overarching story that brings the world to the brink of war. What were some sources of inspiration that influenced this book?

Rootstock Saga is about evolution, about becoming something more. It’s also a “what if” exploration of how The Patterns of our own cycle might have turned us down different paths. Scottish history, especially leading up to Culloden, is one example. What if the Scots had opted for peace instead of fighting for a Stuart king?

I enjoyed the varied cast of engaging characters throughout the book. Who was your favorite character to write for?

Nigel was my favorite. His confidence. His snark. Though Brynmohr is a close second. He is evil good, and good evil. From the start, you sense he is someone he doesn’t want to be. I enjoyed his arc. And, of course, Isobel. She regains her damaged sense of self in book one, and is ready to come into her own in book two.

The characters need to choose between wielding their power or keeping their secret. How did you balance magic and its use throughout the story to keep it believable?

Evolution again. Magic is a genetic adaptation. Mindgifts don’t suddenly appear like flipping a light switch. It’s more of a slow burn, an awakening. Magical realism is a perfect fantasy style for conveying that, I believe. Besides mindgifts, the other “magic” in the story appears as remnants of technology from the last cycle of dragonkind. The swift gates seem magical, but they’re just dragon science we don’t understand yet.

This is book one in your Rootstock Saga. What can readers expect in book two of your series?

Expect an expanding world. Across the ocean, Tallu is a compelling new setting. Book two balances the narrative of our beloved Rhynns and the Este protecting their land and their way of life. Twelve years have passed, and the Storm Hawks are raising families. We see them deal with the oppression that festers after they chose peace over freedom. We meet the new generation, the Children of Promise. More magic awakens and we come face to face with dragonkind, the Kazera.

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Legend of the Storm Hawks (Rootstock Saga Book 1) by [Leonard, L.H.]

Legend of the Storm Hawks introduces the Rootstock Saga, four novels all due to release in 2020. Not a light read, this is serious fantasy for serious fantasy fans. Set on a future Earth, our own history echoes from the shadows. Adversity awakens gifts in this tale of evolution and survival. Science meets fantasy in a burgeoning of psychic and psionic power, and the mindgifted struggle with bigotry, abuse, theocracy, gender roles, climate change, and the temptations of power and privilege. Their intricately interwoven POV voices and plots converge in a long, rewarding end game.

A master player convinces the pawn the move is its own. Nigel has been at the game longer than most, but lately the pawns keep turning into rogue knights. It’s damned inconvenient of them, considering the world is about to end again.

The Watchers will soon declare this cycle over, as they have so many cycles before, shrugging off yet another rise and fall of humankind, and giving the dragons another turn at dominion.

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So Many Unknowns

Deborah Dolan Hunt Author Interview

Deborah Dolan Hunt Author Interview

I enjoyed the simple but in depth explanation of the other dimensions. Why was this an idea you wanted to help kids learn about?

I have always been intrigued by the dimensions and time travel and the possibility of the existence of a mirror-world. There are so many unknowns in this area and I think the concepts in this book will be quite interesting to kids and they may want to learn more about this topic.

The kids in the book show an interest in science, which is something rarely expressed in other books. What were some themes that you felt were important to highlight in this story?

Some of the themes in addition to science and technology I felt were important to highlight in this story were acceptance, friendship, problem-solving, and to open one’s mind to possibilities.

What is the next project you are working on and when will it be published?

I have several exciting projects. I have a new middle-grade book entitled “Hannah and the Hobgoblins” that will be released this July 2020 and a picture book biography about Dale Earnhardt that will be published in 2021. I recently signed a contract with Isabella Media for a picture book entitled “Booch the Pooch” but do not know the publication date. I am also working on several other projects which include two picture books and an early reader series.

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The Keating kids are shocked and intrigued when a tiny visitor suddenly appears during a lightning storm. Once they realize the visitor is friendly and needs their help to return to his dimension they do everything in their power to help him. As time is running out they enlist the help of others, but someone is working against them and not with them. Will they be able to help their traveler return to his own dimension or will he be stuck in this dimension forever. You can find out when you read The Visitor from 4-D.

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A Symbol of Resistance

David Crane Author Interview

David Crane Author Interview

Planet of Gods finds Peter quickly embroiled in dangerous political games instigated by powerful aliens on a far flung colony. This being the start of a series, how did you develop the idea behind this series and is that different from writing other novels?

Planet of Gods was my first professionally published science fiction novel featuring a protagonist who becomes a stranger in a strange land forced to participate in a game designed by a powerful and enigmatic alien intelligence. The idea for the series actually came from my fascination with the comic book superheroes who are born with or have acquired superhuman abilities as a result of an accident or a laboratory experiment. In any story, superheroes always interact with ordinary human beings without whom their story could not be told. Considering all this, I had an idea: why not place an ordinary person into an extraordinary world where he will not only be forced to fight for survival but become a symbol of resistance mentioned in the centuries old prophecy. By giving my protagonist a military background, I wanted to present him as a man with a sense of duty and honor as well as a person who is vulnerable physically and emotionally, because he is after all an ordinary mortal in an extraordinary situation.

I enjoyed planet Enigma in this book and it’s rich backstory. How did the idea for this planet start and change as you wrote?

Working on Planet of Gods was a great fun. Not only because I had an interesting idea for the book but also because I had managed to see it through to completion with the help of a team of dedicated professionals. Planet Enigma had to be a believable, yet fascinating world, which in most ways resembles planet Earth but falls under an alien influence. I designed the mysterious and immensely powerful alien red cloud that is made of evolved pure energy and which is virtually immortal. I thought that such powerful intelligence could have monitored human activity and expansion into space for centuries before deciding to conduct its on unique experiment on a planetary scale. As I was working on Planet of Gods, I wondered what would happen if half of the humans captured by the red cloud were given extraordinary powers and the other half remained ordinary human beings? So I gave these enhanced humans called Overlords the inhuman powers of accelerated healing, ability to fly at will, generate deadly plasma bolts and be immune to old age. When I placed Peter Blackwood into this world populated by these remarkable beings, the stage was set for an adventure designed by the alien red cloud to test the limits of human potential in matters of love, war and desire for power.

This is book one in your Enigma series. Where will the story go in book two?

Planet of Gods has a sequel titled Planet of Men. This is the last book in the series, but I hope it will present an entertaining conclusion of these two volume series. In the second book, Peter Blackwood becomes a powerful symbol of resistance against the rule of tyrannical Overlords and is helped in his task by the men and women who populate a mysterious Freedom Island, the only place on planet Enigma where Overlords cannot go because there they lose their powers and become ordinary human beings. The second book features Peter Blackwood’s new and old friends as well as powerful and vindictive enemies, who will stop at nothing to destroy him and prevent the change of their society. In the sequel to Planet of Gods, Peter Blackwood would be finally able to complete his mission and fulfill the centuries old prophecy and find a place where he could finally live at peace and earn his happiness. I hope my readers will enjoy the second book and follow Peter Blackwood on his final extraordinary adventure on a faraway planet.

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Planet of Gods (Enigma Book 1) by [Crane, David]

Professor Peter Blackwood, a former Space Marine turned scientist, looks forward to retirement on a paradise resort planet.

A powerful alien intelligence in the form of a vast red energy cloud cuts Blackwood’s plans short, snatching him from the hyperspace highway, and catapulting him light years away to a remote planet in an unexplored region of space.

With his ship damaged and unable to escape, Blackwood encounters a distant human colony on planet Enigma, a world controlled by the red cloud and populated by mortals and powerful overlords—immortal human beings with godlike powers.

When Blackwood’s desire to escape is replaced by his intense scientific curiosity, he becomes a player in a dangerous socio-political game designed by the red cloud. It’s a game Blackwood cannot afford to lose—for on his shoulders rests the destiny of millions of people.

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The Concept of the Soul

B.T. Keaton Author Interview

B.T. Keaton Author Interview

Transference explores the possibility of eternal life and its impact on society. How did this idea start and change as you wrote your novel?

Transference literally started off a two-page hot mess. (laughs) It was a short synopsis for a movie. It grew from there and sort of took shape on its own as I rolled it around in my brain over the period of a year or so. Once I decided that it should be a novel instead of a script, I fleshed it out, somehow, and then wrote the book in about 8 weeks. It’s hard for me to remember all the little details because I wrote it over seven years ago! I knew right from the start I wanted to tell a story similar to Star Wars (because my dad loved those movies) and I wanted to honour his memory by writing something I thought he would enjoy. And also, I wanted the book to contain sci-fi elements that I had not really seen in other works before. The concept of the soul being real and tangible actually came (loosely) from Ghostbusters. By the end of the developmental phase—and after all the many, many edits—I realized the book was very much about family in a way that I had never intended, or expected. And I’m so glad for it.

Barrabas is an intriguing and fun character to follow. What were some ideals you wanted to capture in his character?

I’m glad you liked him! Barrabas is interesting to me, too. I think that’s because he wasn’t written to be the protagonist. I feel like he finds himself surrounded by the real protagonists. That’s not to say he’s a bad guy, he’s just an everyman who was put into a bad situation by, among other things, being at the wrong place at the wrong time. The name Barrabas was always intriguing to me as well, and I’m not sure I can answer why that is. In terms of his character, though, I think he’s very much “me”… but also part of my brother… and my dad, too. He’s every important man in my life, basically. It’s funny to be talking about him in this way, because it’s almost as if I had nothing to do with his creation.

I found this book to be thought-provoking as well as entertaining. What were some themes you wanted to explore in your book?

I am chuffed to bits to hear you say that. That was all I really wanted to do—to entertain and maybe, just maybe, make the reader think a little bit. And I’m talking to myself too as I say that. I wondered what it would be like if we could quantify the soul, or, at least to capture it, and then keep it here in this plane of existence. And if we could do that, then it just seemed to me that it was possible to move souls from body to body. With that came identity issues, and the conundrum of “playing God,” all of which intrigued me. But that’s all the heady stuff! (laughs) Ultimately, the book is about a lot of things; revenge, jealousy, rebellion, love, and family… and in the end I’m kind of asking the reader how far they’d be willing to go for what they love more than they love themselves.

What is the next book that you are writing and when will it be available?

I love time travel, so my next book is about that. A few years back I started researching the theories behind it so I could talk about it competently, or at least sound competent. I’ve got the beginning and the end, it’s just getting through the center that’s the hard part for me. But, since I’ve got point A and point Z, I should be able to get there… eventually. I’d like to have it finished, edited, and ready to go by the end of 2020. But I’ve inadvertently thrown a monkey-wrench into my own head with Transference, and a sequel for that is now brewing in my mind. It seems to want to take precedence over anything else. Funny that, eh? (laughs) Also, I’ve written two children’s picture books that I’m so in love with (one is about clowns, and the other about snails) so I really want to get those out into the world for the little ones to enjoy with their parents.

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Transference by [Keaton, B.T.]

Eighty years from now mankind has discovered the secret of eternal life. Human souls can be moved from one body to another through the process known as transference. Control of this new technology has fallen under the dominion of Jovian, a powerful prophet and head of the Church which governs every aspect of existence.
Banished to a mining colony on a distant planet for lawlessness is Barrabas Madzimure, the king of thieves. Only when Barrabas faces execution does he claim that another man committed his infamous crimes decades earlier. The authorities are suspicious. Is he the Madzimure of legend and a potential threat to Jovian’s new world order, or just another victim of transference?

The epic story of a personal mission, Transference takes the reader on a heart-racing journey through rebellion, revenge, self-sacrifice, and the soul’s search for identity.

When everything you believe about civilization is a lie, the ultimate power is truth.

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Philosophical Details of Satanism

Henry Panic Author Interview

Henry Panic Author Interview

With Lucifer On My Side delves into your life as well as the practice and philosophy of Luciferian. What was the inspiration that made you want to write this book?

While you can find books covering philosophical details of Satanism, Luciferianism, paganism and more, there are VERY few books about practice outside of the traditional occult practice. No one was really writing about how they practically use these theories in their life. I found that curious and decided to write WITH LUCIFER ON MY SIDE. Being the first one to explain Luciferianism like this is an accomplishment for me, and I hope the readers take something away from it, whether they agree or do not.

In this book you explore personal details about your life which gives people an understanding of where you come from. What was the hardest thing for you to share?

Easily the chapters DRUGS and JUDGMENT. In DRUGS I detail the mindset during a miserable withdrawal from opiate use. While I cover some of the physical parts of that experience, I wanted the focus to be on the mental changes. Going from furious, to depressed, to drained, to miserable is what I remember most. The physical experience is shitty, definitely, but my mind going to the places it went was the worst part of it. Specifically the things I thought and wrote about my father were difficult for me. DRUGS was exceptionally close to getting pulled because of that.

JUDGMENT, well it’s pretty self explanatory to anyone who has read it. An embarrassing situation I found myself in. The behavior I exhibited during that relationship truly was massively out of character for me. As a result, the guilt I experienced in the aftermath was incredibly difficult to let go of. I am better than that now and then. But hey, live and learn. Shit happens.

You give a lot of great insight into the life and practice of a Luciferian. What do you find is a common misconception people have about Luciferian?

That it is some kind of conspiracy theory religion only held by the billionaire elites. Or that the horror movies got it right and we are gathering in a forest to sacrifice people or animals. Couldn’t be further from the truth. Luciferianism started in ancient Greece (ancient Egypt if you want to get REALLY technical), then it moved to Gnosticism during the time of Christ, and then again with Madame Blavatsky and Michael Ford. It’s a real philosophy, with roots in ancient cultures. To be fair, I am a sort of outlier in Luciferianism because I don’t practice in the traditional occult sense. Many do, and more power to them. The point here is do what works for you and disregard what doesn’t.

What is the next book that you are working on and when will it be available?

I have a couple ideas in mind but I want to ride this wave for a while. The next book would be called WHAT IS LUCIFERIANISM? That much I know. WITH LUCIFER ON MY SIDE details my practice much more than it details what the philosophy is actually about. Not to say that I don’t give a solid summary, but there is so much more to go into. No one has really done it yet, outside of occult type stuff, so if nothing else that would be my next writing project.

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With Lucifer On My Side dives into the upbringing, life, and Luciferian practice of the author, Henry Panic. From Catholic roots he found LaVeyan Satanism. From there he discovered various pagan belief systems, ultimately finding Luciferianism, a Gnosticism derivative. This book goes through the trials of a man attempting to self-deify and gives a detailed insight into the life and practice of a Luciferian in the 21st-century.

Panic’s approach is daringly honest, humorous, and thought provoking. Challenging you to visit his reality and decide for yourself – can a person become like God?

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