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Beautiful Journey
Reigning Fire tells the story of a princess raised in a world built on Smokeveil magic, rigid hierarchy, and brutal expectations, whose Emberkin arrives too early and in a form that is forbidden. What was the inspiration for the setup of your story?
Reigning Fire grew out of two long-standing fascinations: mythical creatures inspired by East Asian folklore, and the question of what it costs a person to exist in a world that often values conformity over authenticity.
As a late-identified neurodivergent writer, I’ve spent much of my life feeling out of sync with the rhythm everyone else seemed to follow. When I was younger, a head teacher once described me as “a square in a world of circles.” It took years to realize she was right, but also that I wasn’t a square at all. I was a triangle. And ultimately, the problem wasn’t my shape, but the assumption that everyone should be the same.
That realization shaped the world of Reigning Fire more than anything. The Emberkin system—smoke creatures that take the form of real-world animals and bond with Weavers—became a way to explore identity, hierarchy, and the rules we’re told to accept without question. Characters in this world are taught that the timing of the bond and the “acceptable” Emberkin forms dictate their social status. Through that lens, I could examine the tension between who we’re expected to be and who we actually are.
As children, many of us inherit a set of rules about “how the world works.” But as we grow, we start looking closer and asking: Who created these rules? Why do they exist? Who benefits from them?
Xun’s Emberkin arriving too early and in a forbidden form allowed me to explore what happens when someone’s identity refuses to fit the timeline—or the template—that society sets for them. It’s a fantasy world, but the emotional truth beneath it is very real: the quiet, painful, and sometimes beautiful journey of learning to take up space as you are.
What were some themes that were important for you to explore in this book?
Beyond the question of identity, Reigning Fire explores three main themes that felt important for me to write about: historical erasure, loyalty, and the politics of perception.
First, I wanted to examine historical negationism—specifically, how societies can outlaw an aspect of human variation and then gradually erase all record of its existence. In the world of Reigning Fire, certain Emberkin forms are not only forbidden but deliberately removed from documented history and rewritten as “abnormal.” That dynamic mirrors the way real-world institutions sometimes control which narratives are preserved, which are buried, and which are reframed as taboo.
The second theme is loyalty, especially the form that exists between child and parent. I wanted to explore what happens when that bond is used as a tool—when a parent treats a child’s love and devotion not as something to nurture, but as a vessel for achieving their own agenda. It’s a painful tension: the longing to honor the people who raised you, and the slow, shattering realization that they may not always have acted in your best interests.
The third theme centers on power and perception. Throughout human history, the most enduring form of power hasn’t always come from weapons or armies—it has come from whoever controls the narrative. In Reigning Fire, characters constantly navigate a world where truth is malleable and obscure, and those in authority will go to extraordinary lengths to maintain their version of events. I wanted to explore the quiet, insidious ways people manipulate stories, memory, and even “facts” to protect their position.
All three themes—erasure, loyalty, and narrative control—shape the emotional core of the book. Even in a world of magic and mythical creatures, the human consequences of these forces are strikingly real.
What were some goals you set for yourself as a writer in this book?
One of my biggest goals with Reigning Fire was to write a story that felt deeply human, even inside a world full of magic, myth, and political danger. To do that, I challenged myself not only to explore the emotional territory I naturally gravitate toward, but also to sit with characters who unsettled me. I would ask them, “Who are you underneath your facade? What drives you? And how exactly did you become this version of yourself?”
Writing from perspectives that diverged sharply from my own was unnerving at times. There were chapters where stepping into another character’s inner world genuinely messed with my head for a while. But those were also the moments I’m proudest of because they made the story richer and more honest.
Another goal was to portray human choices in all their moral complexity. I wanted to move away from clean categories of “good or evil,” “loving or cruel,” and instead explore how intentions, fear, loyalty, and survival instincts collide. In real life, choices rarely fall into neat boxes—even the most well-meaning intentions can sometimes cause harm. One question that guided a lot of my writing was: At what point do good intentions stop being able to justify the consequences they create?
If readers walk away from the book holding more questions than answers, then I’ve achieved what I set out to do. Complex questions aren’t meant to have simple resolutions—but it doesn’t make them any less important to ask.
What is the next book you are working on, and when will it be available?
I’m currently working on the sequel to Reigning Fire, which will be released in late 2026. Without giving away any major spoilers, this next book explores how Xun—now going by Ling—ironically grows more in her years as a fugitive than she ever did as a princess. Stepping outside that gilded palace cage gives her the freedom to redefine who she is when no one is scrutinizing her every breath, even when her path is still fraught with danger.
Readers can expect to encounter more mythic Emberkin and new characters, as the world expands far beyond the political and cultural boundaries of the first book. Some familiar faces from Reigning Fire will return, while others may be absent… and I’ll leave it to readers to decide which disappearances should worry them.
One of the core themes of the sequel is reclamation—of identity, of history, and of personal power. That’s all I’ll say for now, but I’m excited for readers to see where the story leads next.
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In a realm where power is sealed through smoke and blood, Yan Xun was born to inherit a crown-or be destroyed by it.
When her Emberkin arrives far too early, and in a form the world has no place for, Xun becomes a danger to the very empire she was meant to serve. As she uncovers long-buried truths and navigates a court built on silence, loyalty, and control, her existence alone threatens to unravel everything.
Set in an ancient Chinese-inspired empire of myth and ash, Reigning Fire is a lyrical fantasy about forbidden power, political unrest, and the ghosts we carry. Through richly layered worldbuilding and emotional depth, this debut novel explores the complexities of trauma, neurodivergence, and what it means to survive when your truth has no place in the world.
Perfect for readers who love introspective characters, slow-burn rebellion, and myth-infused storytelling, Reigning Fire blends co
Eternal Search for Meaning
Flight of a Prodigy follows an eight-year-old street kid in ancient Rome who, after witnessing the death of his only friend, is captured and thrown into slavery, where he is trained to become an elite warrior. What was the inspiration for the setup of your story?
The inspiration came from my fascination with how traumatic events, particularly in our formative years, can affect the type of people we become, and how our perception of such events can either damage or expand our minds. I wanted to explore what happens when innocence refuses to yield to a predominant evil, and ancient Rome provided a platform where brutality and glory coexisted.
The death of the boy’s only friend symbolizes the loss of all he had, including his dreams and his childhood itself, while his capture into slavery reflects the harsh truth that fairness is rare. The exceptionally brutal training he is thrown into could be perceived as a punishment or a transformation, an allegory for resilience, identity, and strength through suffering. I wanted to reimagine them in a historical setting that feels both raw and epic.
What are some things that you find interesting about the human condition that you think make for great fiction?
What fascinates me most about the human condition is that, first of all, we are emotional creatures driven by hereditary traits in addition to our learned traits. And when we are forced into confrontation and must defeat the challenge or fall to it, emotions can be cast aside for incredible resolve or enhanced for a potential final stance. We all experience grief and hardship, but what makes great fiction is seeing how characters rise or fall when tested. I’m drawn to resilience because only in due time can we appreciate sadness for providing happiness, or weaknesses for providing strength, or hatred for providing love. For me, fiction thrives when it explores innocence colliding with a brutal reality, weakness evolves into power, and the eternal search for meaning in a chaotic world continues.
What were some themes that were important for you to explore in this book?
I enjoy a good coming-of-age story, so one of the most important themes to explore in this book was the loss of innocence, how a kid is forced to confront a brutal reality and reshape his identity in a world that never allowed him to be a child. How, after his escape from servitude, he teeters on a fulcrum between good and evil as he strives to learn more about himself and how to survive in civilization.
Another key theme was poking a little fun at humanity’s futile need to understand everything. What we cannot fully wrap our minds around must be magic, the will of the gods, preordained fate, or perhaps ancient aliens. I leave it for the readers to decide.
Ultimately, I am fascinated by how transformation from grief, through struggle and survival, can propel someone into an event larger than life. Those explorations felt essential to me because they create the kind of epic, emotionally charged fiction I love to read and write.
Will this novel be the start of a series, or are you working on a different story?
Although I would never say never to a sequel, Flight of a Prodigy was written as a stand-alone story. I try to write what I want to read, no endings left open or loose ends untied, no poor editing to save time, and no short stories disguised as a book.
I am currently working on a new Historical Fiction, and I’m starting to get excited for it. It has the potential to be my best work… if I don’t screw it up.
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Remy’s journey begins as a homeless eight-year-old surviving on the unforgiving streets of ancient Rome. When his situation could not possibly become worse, it of course does. Thrown in to slavery, he must undertake what would become an eight-year training regimen devised by evil people for evil purposes. Only a few hundred survive, to form an elite group of warriors. Remy not only endures but thrives, becoming its prodigy.
Remy escapes with his life, only to find freedom is full of more challenges than expected. Though merely sixteen he is a volatile and dangerous weapon, at home in a fight but lost in civilization. He gains employment to scout for a traveling wagon party in hopes of remaining unnoticed by those that may be searching for him.
His new employer and coworkers consist of three beautiful young ladies, Annabelle, Divina and Gee, along with their surviving family members and household guards. It is a slow, difficult, and humorous process of growth for Remy. Will his newfound friendships, acceptance, trust and maybe even love, allow him to overcome the evil psychological affects that manipulate his childhood traumas?
Once-Mighty Civilization
Daughters of the Empire follows two women as they navigate through political intrigue, family secrets, and timeless battles as they search for truth and a way to save their world. What was the inspiration for the setup of your story?
There were several sources of inspiration, but two stand out: The Rise and Fall of the Great Powers, by Paul Kennedy, and The Legend of the Galactic Heroes, by Yoshiki Tanaka. I wanted to craft a story that blends Kennedy’s concept of the cyclical rise and decline of empires with a more human-centered narrative. While Tanaka’s work is brilliant in exploring the merits of autocracy versus democracy, it often lacks the intimate human dimension. I also felt that modern storytelling rarely gives us strong, complex female leads like Major Kira Nerys or Susan Ivanova. Too often, Hollywood substitutes depth for superficial “girl boss” tropes. My goal was to create flawed yet deeply relatable characters—Deanna, Valerica, Lucilla, and Miyu—whose choices you may not always agree with, but whose motivations you can understand.
I find the world you created in this novel brimming with possibilities. Where did the inspiration for the setting come from, and how did it change as you were writing?
The myth of Atlantis and Homer’s Iliad were my primary inspirations. I was fascinated by the idea of a once-mighty civilization—the Palladian Star Empire—suddenly collapsing, leaving the protagonists to pick up the pieces. The second half of the book draws heavily from the Iliad, exploring how war reshapes not only the world but the heroes themselves. One chapter of history closes, and a new one begins. Gaia emerges scarred yet transformed, and the four main characters realize that survival alone is not enough—the empire must evolve if it is to flourish.
What were some themes that were important for you to explore in this book?
Personal freedom is one of the core themes. I wanted to subvert the “chosen one” trope, but in a way different from Dune. Deanna, Valerica, Lucilla, and Miyu understand that their choices have consequences. They don’t blindly follow prophecies or orders—they seize leadership and make the best decisions they can in the moment, even when those choices haunt them later. Unlike Paul Atreides, Lucilla reforms the empire without invoking any divine mandate, and Deanna joins her not as a rebel but as a realist. Frank Herbert once said that all rebels are closeted aristocrats—a fair point—but Deanna is something else entirely: pragmatic and grounded.
The second major theme is transhumanism: what truly makes us human? Is it our memories, our personality, our capacity to love? Through genetic memory, cybernetic augmentation, and the tension between evolution and identity, the book asks whether humanity is defined by biology or by the choices we make.
I find a problem in well-written stories, in that I always want there to be another book to keep the story going. Is there a second book planned?
As you said, the story is intentionally left open-ended, which creates many possibilities for what comes next. So yes—a sequel is definitely a possibility. I already have ideas about where the characters and the empire could go from here, but I want to make sure any continuation feels as meaningful and ambitious as the first book.
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Admiral Valerica Crassus, a veteran of countless battles, faces her greatest challenge yet—not from an enemy fleet, but from the haunting questions of right and wrong as she commands her forces in the final stage of the Draco Sector conquest.
On the verdant planet of Dorset II, Deanna Lancaster’s tranquil existence as a wine merchant is shattered by a sudden raid, thrusting her into a web of cosmic schemes. As she delves into her family’s enigmatic past, Deanna discovers truths that could alter the course of her life, and the galaxy, forever.
Daughters of the Empire is a tale of courage, camaraderie, and the unyielding quest for truth. Join Valerica and Deanna as they navigate through political intrigue, family secrets, and timeless battles over a galactic chessboard between light and darkness. This richly illustrated space opera—including 22 original artworks and two detailed maps—will take you on an epic journey where the legacy of the past will define the destiny of the future.
Devotion and Duty
Sick is a haunting psychological horror that follows a marriage unraveling into madness as devotion, illness, and manipulation, and blurs into a claustrophobic battle for control and belonging. What was the inspiration for the setup of your story?
This story was born from a nightmare. I dreamt I was a woman whose life was decaying around her as she cared for her sickly husband. By the end of the dream, she discovered the man she loved and trusted was far more ill than she could imagine. Her disorientation and fear pulled at me, and I knew I had to write the story.
How did you balance the ambiguity of John’s illness so the reader constantly questions what’s real and what’s manipulation?
I wanted to put people inside Susan’s mind, in the perspective of your typical person who feels the duty to care for their loved ones, no matter what is required. She has let her husband’s illness take over her life, so much so that she no longer has one. Of course, caregivers think, this person is sick, they need me. But what is the cost to yourself? When does devotion and duty become co-dependency? You can only be manipulated if you allow people to do so. How much of it is your own fault?
The book relies heavily on atmosphere and sensory detail rather than overt scares. How do you approach building tension through subtlety rather than shock?
I think the dark, quiet desires, motivations, and needs of our inner selves are more terrifying than your typical monsters, serial killers, or jump scares. It’s the realization that the frame you put around your life story to keep you safe could be a lie, and that you have been preyed upon by those you love and trust. It’s being slowly bled dry and not knowing until it’s too late. Worst of all is realizing you had a hand in your own demise.
What do you hope readers take away about love, neediness, and the moral gray zones that exist inside unhealthy relationships?
I hope readers will think more deeply about what they’re giving and taking in relationships, to be aware when someone is manipulating and using them, and where they themselves might be abusing a person in their life in a mental or emotional way.
Most victims can’t conceive that someone who claims to love them is silently exploiting them for their own gain. Likewise, abusers often don’t know that what they are doing is toxic. These are survival mechanisms they learned as children.
That is why I showed both Susan’s and John’s sides of the story. Neither of them is innocent.
Unfortunately, once confronted, not all abusers will acknowledge to themselves, much less to others, that they were damaging the people around them. It takes a brave person, a genuinely good-hearted and self-aware person, to be willing to admit their flaws and work to change them. Most narcissists and psychopaths do not have any empathy for others, nor true self-awareness that extends beyond their own self-importance.
I hope this story will wake up victims to possible abuse and tip off abusers that maybe they are the villain, and not the hero, of their own story.
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Charming and enigmatic, but very sick.
Born into wealth and prestige, John lost his family’s fortune to the mysterious illness that has now left him bedridden, and Susan’s life revolves around his care.
Years of devotion have left her exhausted and frustrated, yet she’s determined to scrape together whatever resources she can to keep John comfortable and happy—including stealing Demerol from the doctor’s office where she works to feed his growing dependence on painkillers.
As John’s condition continues to baffle doctors, Susan uncovers a secret from his childhood and the chilling cause of his illness.
Now that she knows the truth, can she put an end to the madness?
Christa Wojciechowski delivers a twisted psychological suspense novel for readers who like their fiction sick, sharp, and unforgettable.
The Adventure of Writing
The Beast Keepers follows a young veterinarian who takes a job in rural Ohio and discovers that his new patients include mythological creatures hiding in plain sight. What was the inspiration for the setup of your story?
Several years ago, while my flat-coated retriever, Mr. Bingley, and I waited at the holistic vet for a chiropractic adjustment, I studied the poster showing the acupuncture points for dogs. I wondered if animals such as turtles, frogs, snakes, porcupines, etc., had acupuncture points as well.
While the vet worked on Bingley, I asked him whether he learned acupuncture for animals besides dogs, cats, horses, etc. He replied that there were classes for “other” animals. Though I think he probably meant animals such as goats or sheep, there was something about the way he said “other” that caused me to think:
“You meant Gryphons? Centaurs? Fauns?” Showing a modicum of restraint, I did not ask that aloud. I did, however, spend the remainder of the day contemplating how you would treat medical issues in mythological animals. If a Gryphon had a lung infection, would you be treating bird lungs or mammalian lungs? Can centaurs get gout, and if so, how would it manifest? Can unicorns get laminitis?
Thus was born the idea of The Beast Keepers, an adult literary novel with a twist.
I enjoyed the depth of the main character, Jonathan, who is flawed and relatable, making him likable. What was your process to bring that character to life?
The first thing that helped me to get an idea of who Jonathan would be was getting his name right. I tried a lot of different names, especially for his first name, but Jonathan seemed to have the right sound, feel and be appropriate for his age. His last name is particularly dear to me. St. Roch is the patron saint of dogs (St. Francis of Assisi is the patron saint of animals, hence Jonathan’s middle name), and a favorite of mine since visiting a church in France where his story was carved into the staircase for the lectern. Being a dog trainer for almost 20 years, it seemed a fitting way to honor the many wonderful dogs and clients I had over the years.
Next, I fleshed out his character. The book Story Genius, by Lisa Cron, was really helpful in that process. I created a backstory and wrote about critical events and people in his life up to where the book started. Knowing him as a full person (with doubts, strengths, fears, longings, etc) helped me to shape his reactions, dialogue, and ultimately how he would respond to the challenges of the people, and events that he encountered.
I had a lot more of his background story in the first draft of the book, but my developmental editor helped me to trim it back so that it was suggested and you could see how it had shaped him, but it didn’t overshadow or interfere with the story being told.
What were some themes that were important for you to explore in this book?
One important theme is: What is the quality of mercy that we owe our enemies? And, how do we implement that mercy? Other themes include: How do we find balance in our lives? The importance of integrity in our actions and in our relationships, and how does one manage mistakes or difficult situations?
Will this novel be the start of a series, or are you working on a different story?
I have been asked to do a sequel (or a prequel explaining how the mythological animals got there), but I don’t have plans for either at the moment. Right now, I am working on a novel I’ve tentatively titled The Boy Who Danced For The Moon. I was about 2/3 of the way through it when I decided it needed to be revamped, so I am in the process of starting over. I have some parts I can save, but the adventure of writing a book is partly the process of finding your way to the story. Once I have the story, the writing tends to flow.
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Unsolved Mystery
Hypocrisy drops readers right into a wild mix of government secrets, alien power plays, and strange visions that blur the line between what is real and what is imagined. What was the inspiration for the setup of your story?
I have been intrigued by the UAP disclosure activity in Congress and the ongoing mystery and debunking of the entire UFO phenomenon. I felt that would be a terrific background to create conflict and have different points of view to set the story against, since it still remains an unsolved mystery.
When you first sat down to write this story, did you know where you were going, or did the twists come as you were writing?
The characters came first, and I wanted them to be distinct and different, and from that came the outline of the story.
How did you balance the action scenes with the story elements and still keep a fast pace in the story?
I think it was Dean Koontz who said, “Put a character in a terrible situation and keep making it worse,” and that helped serve as a guideline for how things go wrong to maintain the tension and active plot.
Will this novel be the start of a series, or are you working on a different story?
This will be the start of a series. I intentionally set it up so that the characters could have an ongoing life full of adventure, chaos, and immense conflict. With a little bit of humor and self-reflection thrown in on the side.
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In the world’s most remote outpost—Antarctica—a covert excavation unearths something ancient, intelligent, and alive. CIA asset Charisma, her teenage protégée Leticia, and enigmatic xenoanthropologist Alen Innocent are drawn into a web of deception that spans governments, galaxies, and the very fabric of human consciousness. As shadow factions fight for control of the mysterious Veil of Hypocrisy, the boundaries between truth and illusion collapse.
From Milan’s glittering runways to military tunnels buried under polar ice, Hypocrisy blends science fiction, espionage, and moral satire in a gripping tale of identity, power, and survival. As alien technology exposes the lies that bind humanity, Charisma and Alen must decide whether saving the world means revealing its greatest hypocrisy—or becoming part of it.
Science-fiction fans will be drawn to this mind-bending, character-driven thriller where the ultimate battle is not between species, but between truth and self-deception.
A Mix of Emotions
Is There Not a Cause? is a raw and unapologetic collection of poetry, songs, stories, personal reflections, and scenes of life that explore faith, pain, and personal development in a way that leaves the reader feeling raw and alive. What inspired you to write this particular collection of poems?
This collection was initially published in 2021. This re-release has over twenty-five new poems. My inspiration to write this collection came from time and experiences, loss, growth, pain, love, social climate around the world, faith, and more.
How do you approach writing about deeply personal or emotional topics?
I approach it the same way I do most of my pieces. I also do spoken word, so the majority of my poems are written from the perspective of me speaking to an audience or myself. For whatever reason, that makes it easy for me to share and or express deeply personal or emotional topics.
How did you go about organizing the poems in the book? Was there a specific flow or structure you were aiming for?
The beauty of the book is that there is no form or structure. The poems/stories/songs flow almost at its own pace, creating a mix of emotions, thoughts, concerns, and anthems.
How has this poetry book changed you as a writer, or what did you learn about yourself through writing it?
I learned how to truly lock in. This past year was a challenge in many ways. All in all, it made me a better writer, speaker, and performer. Writing this book was a great challenge in not depending so much on rhyming and rhythm. Allowing me to put greater effort into storytelling and free verse.
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Published in numerous magazines and online, esteemed poet and wordsmith Nathaniel Terrell re-releases his first collection of unapologetically raw and honest reflections. If you are someone who prefers to experience life and savor its moments – sacred, painful, and true – you will find favorites in this collection that you will return to. The works will touch your soul in the way poetry should.
IS THERE NOT A CAUSE? by Nathaniel Terrell is a collection best taken one page at a time and is a collection worth savoring and rereading. Each poem is replete with the wisdom and enlightenment gained from someone who experiences life and savor its moments. His words are sacred, painful, and true, and his works will touch your emotions and will find their way into your soul, just as good poetry should.
This re-release is a powerful debut collection containing songs, stories, personal reflections, and scenes of life, with some new poems highlighting growth and maturity. Written from the perspective of a passionate, creative black man working hard to share his voice with the world, each poem paints a vivid picture of the soul of an artist. It grapples with topics such as life and death, racism, faith, anger, social injustice, division in the nation, and getting up after failure. These poems are meant to encourage and to provoke and desire, and will take you on a journey that starts fast and hard and dives deeply into the human condition.
Contemporary culture seeks to define us and forge our identities. Things are never that black and white. The real human condition is a personal journey through pain and ignorance as we seek hope, inspiration, and enlightenment. Each poem conveys important messages about the capacity to pry open our hearts and be connected with our true nature. His warm, inspirational words will encourage and provoke you to take a journey that will start fast and dive deeper. It’s an invitation to mindful presence where the words and artistic expressions compel you to find peace with yourself and the world.
For more on Nathaniel Terrell’s works, visit him on social media at natej.story or at http://www.natejstory.com.
Meaningful Work
Emetophobia & Me follows your transformation from a childhood shaped by fear to an adulthood grounded in courage, compassion, and the radical act of choosing to live fully even when anxiety whispers otherwise. Why was this an important book for you to write?
What a great question. It brought up quite a lot for me. I will try to summarise it. Having battled crippling anxiety throughout most of my childhood and adult life, I wanted nothing more than to help others who were suffering too. When I saw someone suffering with anxiety and/or emetophobia and heard them speak of their experience in ways I deeply resonated with, my heart would literally hurt. For many years, I would just listen and try to offer any understanding and …. well, just love really. It felt like a lifeline for me to have someone who would just listen and remind me that I was not alone. So when I decided to write this little book, it was really to create a lifeline for those who feel lost and to remind them that they were safe. There is hope, and they are deeply loved.
What feels important to me is that, even when I am gone, my books might still bring comfort to others. That feels like meaningful work to me.
What was the hardest memory to revisit while writing Emetophobia & Me, and how did you care for yourself during that process?
Writing the book really did bring up some old feelings and fears, but it was therapeutic in a way too. I think the hardest part to revisit was those times, as a child, where I felt so unsafe. I had the phobia, anxiety, and panic ( I had no idea they had names then), there was violence at home, and my sister was diagnosed with cancer.
I felt so sad for that frightened little girl, who tried tirelessly to control what was never in her control. I guess that is why I turned inward more and more, to try and control myself. To try and keep myself safe with rituals, behaviour, and fear.
Was there a specific moment when your relationship with fear shifted from something to avoid to something you could coexist with?
You know, I wish there was a light bulb moment when it all changed. We are all looking for the magical quick fix, right? But, actually, it was a slow process. A process of seeing, then not seeing, then seeing more. The real change came from being open to being wrong …. about who I thought I was, my beliefs, and my misunderstanding about fear.
Being open. Being prepared to change your mind. Being aware that there is a lot you don’t know yet, is huge.
What do you hope readers who don’t struggle with phobias take away about empathy and the lived experience of anxiety?
It has always been important to me that loved ones and family members have some understanding about anxiety and Phobias. The one thing a sufferer needs is understanding. Followed by time and love. Just listen, not always to fix, but just to hear. Often, we sufferers of anxiety feel unheard, and that increases fear and insecurity.
The answer to everything always is love.
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She could control everything—
except her own fear.
From the outside, Jess Smith looked fine. A wife, a mother, a woman doing her best to hold it all together. But behind every smile hid a secret terror—an obsessive fear of vomiting so intense it ruled her every decision. Every meal was measured. Every outing calculated. Every day, a battle with her own mind.
Until the fear began to consume her life completely.
In this raw and beautifully written memoir about emetophobia, anxiety and panic attacks, Jess takes readers inside the hidden world of a phobia few dare to talk about. Her story unfolds like a psychological thriller—every symptom, every panic episode, every desperate attempt to stay “safe” pulling her further from the life she longed to live.
But when she finally hit breaking point, something miraculous happened.
She stopped running.
She turned inward.
And she began the journey home—to herself.
Part memoir, part self-help guide for anxiety and recovery, Emetophobia and Me will make you feel every heartbeat of fear—and every breath of freedom that follows.
If you’ve ever lived your life controlled by fear—whether of panic, sickness, or simply losing control—this story will hold your hand through the darkness and show you that healing isn’t about fixing yourself.
It’s about finally allowing yourself to be free.
A powerful, honest, and inspiring read for anyone navigating anxiety, emetophobia, panic disorder, or trauma recovery.
You are not afraid of what you think you are.
It’s time to see the truth — and take your life back.
LITERARY TITAN 