A Memoir of My Descent Into Borderline Personality Disorder
“What will the neighbors think?” “Keep your voice down, or the neighbors will hear you screaming.” I never knew The Neighbors, but, more importantly, they never knew my family. Right next door was a house of horror, and they indeed never knew. This is the story that was carefully concealed from you. This is the story that can happen even if you do grow up with neighbors watching.
From author Cindy Collins comes an unblinkingly honest, poignant, and often heartbreaking firsthand account of what it’s like to live with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) . . . and the pervasive trauma she endured as a child that led to her descent into the dark world of BPD. Gaslighted by her mother—who cultivated an outward appearance of being the perfect wife and mother—Cindy suffered ongoing sexual abuse by multiple family members, abandonment, and cruelty at the hands of the one person who should have loved and protected her most. The resulting fits of rage, extreme thinking, difficulty maintaining relations, and depression would set Cindy on a path of destruction until she finally found the hope and courage to fight her demons.
Chronicling her childhood of abuse, her diagnosis of BPD in her twenties, and her ultimate road to recovery, Born Under the Gaslight is a memoir like none you have ever read before. Offering a rare and insightful glimpse into the inner struggles of someone who lives with BPD, Born Under the Gaslight is a must-read for therapists, others living with BPD, and anyone wanting to understand the complexities of BPD and how to offer practical and emotional support.
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University on Watch is your true story detailing the obstacles you faced in academia and how you were forced to overcome your disabilities while facing bias and ignorance from people at the university. Why was this an important book for you to write?
I fell in love when I was in college in New London with language. If I was ever going to put process the trauma and move towards healing I needed to recapture the events in the book through the very words that were so precious to me years ago.
What were some ideas that were important for you to explore in this book?
The impact of a major mental health disorder on a person’s life. Specifically, for young people alone and isolated from supports, and other vulnerable people. They needed to know what it takes to survive, and the various threatening intersections there are in the health and healing.
What is one thing you hope readers take away from your book?
Always keep in mind your behavior and the goals that you are setting out to accomplish. The behavior has a direct impact on us and the outcomes in life. Sometimes, without doing everything we can do to keep moving is all we have to hold on to in our darkest hours.
You are a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. Has your time helped others informed the development of your book?
Without the clinical language, I wouldn’t’ be convinced I had what it took to write the book. Prior to healing and becoming a social worker, I had only one lens through to see the world. Back then, I also felt a certain way about my grip on the world (shame, guilt, all of it). The point is without a whole new way of understanding the world, what else was I offering but a closed-off and a non-illuminating text.
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University on Watch: Crisis in the Academy by J Peters is a unique reading experience. It is the author’s true story of what he endured going through the world of academia and how he was forced to overcome his disabilities AND the biases and ignorance of those at the university to achieve his education goals.
It is a stunning examination of those dark things that should not be tolerated or accepted on any level, but ones we all know occur when backs are turned or no one is looking. More than that, it is the story of hope. Of how we can achieve our dreams no matter the obstacles thrown in our way. Despite the almost horrific exposure of academia’s underbelly people choose to ignore, this tell all confession is a message of inspiration for those with disabilities and mental health issues. Author J Peters wrote University On Watch after enduring a major crisis at New London University. It took ten long years for him to come to terms with what happened there. No, I won’t spoil that for you with this review. During that time he took a closer look at who he was and who he wanted to be. J Peters has since gone on to become a rhetoric scholar and, in his own words, a person living with schizophrenia.
This book is written in a straightforward manner, both open and easy to follow. J Peters pulls no punches in his recounting of his time at the university. His book is a journey of self-discovery that will engage your emotions on a deep level. If you don’t walk away questioning the how and why of this scenario you may need to go back and reread it. University on Watch is unlike anything you will read. Do yourself a favor- walk a mile in J. Peters’ shoes.
Pages: 150 | ASIN: B07NP2891M
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It’s the year 2003. Teenagers are messaging each other online, listening to punk music on MP3 players, and writing blogs on LiveJournal to fit in. One such teen is walking the halls of Wales High School with bright shirts, leather jackets, and blue hair: Jacques Peters. He’s determined to become best friends with one of the coolest guys in school, Davis Mavis. But he soon discovers that smoking, skipping class, and putting up a front aren’t as cool as they seem, particularly when mental health is involved. His friends gossip behind his back, push him out of their clique, and turn a blind eye to the cuts on his wrists. He’s dragged into a life that leads to a long stay in a psychiatric ward he hates, full of therapy, pills, and a strict routine.
That troubled teen is me.
When I was discharged, I was in a daze. Numbed by medication and left with few friends, I spent my days listening to music and giving my teachers lip. Eventually, on a cold winter night home alone, I posted a single word on my blog: “goodbye.” I took a cocktail of pills and hoped to slip into an endless sleep.
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The demands on public service workers are only increasing, and the pressure involved in all of these jobs is building by the day. Human Resource offices are inundated with contacts from employees who are on the verge of giving up–in more ways than one. How can we help them? What can be done to save them and their broken spirits?
Angela Thomas Jones’s book, Not Too Tired to Care, takes a close look at the growing concern surrounding burnout and how it affects workers across careers. Considering the intensive demands currently placed on our nation’s healthcare workers, Jones’s work is both timely and much-needed. It is not enough to say that we should do more to address the well-being and mental health of our essential workers–we should act on it. Jones delves into how burnout began to manifest itself among workers and offers a great many resources as well as strategies to combat this rising problem.
I found the pacing of Jones’s work to be refreshing. Not all nonfiction books are written in a format that makes for an easy read, but Jones takes care of her readers. She includes breaks in some of the heaviest parts and provides readers with the opportunity to note valuable resources throughout the reading. Jones leaves no stone unturned. From facts to reflection breaks to tips, she covers all the bases and creates a flow in the reading that is well-matched with the subject matter.
The personal stories peppered throughout the text draw readers into the book and give faces and names to the cold hard facts and figures supplied by the author. Jones’s work reads as much like a personal narrative as it does a self-help book. These touching and relatable scenarios give voices to the thousands of men and women suffering on a daily basis, heading for complete burnout. Jones has managed to explain the phenomenon known as “burnout” in a way which instantly draws empathy and coaxes a reaction from readers. Kindness is key, and Jones knows this. Making others aware of the plight of public service workers, especially in the time of Covid19, is a key first step in changing the course of their lives.
I am giving Angela Thomas Jones’s book, Not Too Tired to Care, 5 out of 5 stars. As a teacher and sister to a nurse, I can appreciate the work that has gone into this book. Jones has done her homework. From cover to cover, she provides readers with facts and strategies, all designed to improve the plight of our public service workers. I recommend Jones’s heartfelt work to anyone who works in or has loved ones in the medical field. Jones’s insight is truly invaluable.
Pages: 214 | ASIN: B08NY21F1W
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Weirdo 2.0 gives readers the tools they need to handle a harsh boss along with information about autism. What inspired you to write this book?
In the book, I mention how impossible it was to sue the school district because I couldn’t find a defamation lawyer that would take my case. I really believed I was not going to let these people win, so that is what inspired me to write the book. I had kept all of the emails, letters, and recordings from that last year and beyond because I knew there was going to be something rotten, I just never thought it would have been that bad.
I appreciated the personal accounts you shared in this book. What were some ideas that were important for you to get convey?
The biggest thing for me to convey was, that I wanted any person who is living with a disability should never have to deal with abuse from others…especially at work! The most difficult part is when you have a neuro-deficient disorder, people will look at you and see no cane or wheelchair, so how can you be ‘disabled’? I want people to learn how important it is to advocate for yourself or you will constantly be beaten to the ground!
What is one thing you hope readers take away from your book?
We’re all humans. None of us are perfect but we try to live our lives the best we can. Never let anyone else tell you that your worthless or you can’t do anything right. You have a gift, no matter what disability you may have. Use that gift and inspire others, because you never know who might be watching thinking they have nothing to offer.
What is the next book that you are working on and when will it be available?
I have 3, believe it or not. One is about my mother-in-law who had journaled her USO trip to Iceland during the early ’60s and I found it to be really fascinating and I want to share it with the rest of the world. The other is a book about relationships dating and marrying a person with autism. The last book is about police and how they handle people with autism.
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Beyond Agoraphobia by Georgia Riedel is a guidebook based on the experiences of the author for those who suffer from fear, anxiety and panic attacks. Georgia Reidel started experiencing symptoms of anxiety at the age of fourteen and this affected her ability to cope in school and to maintain jobs in the future. She spent many years in therapy before she could manage to carry out these regular daily functions without fear. She shares her experience working with different clients and getting them to the point of recovery where they are able to go anywhere and do anything free of their symptoms. She covers the various triggers of anxiety, fear and panic, persons more likely to be affected by panic attacks and the ingredients for recovery. She also outlines how positive thinking can help and the different steps to becoming a positive thinker and developing useful stress management techniques.
At 61 pages Georgia Riedel has written a quick self-help book that will assist readers in getting a concise and whole picture of what actions they can take. It gives pointers on triggers and approaches to avoid if one experiences any unique challenges. The reader can choose to use it as a practical guide to decide on a way forward. The author herself is an example of someone who has used the given strategies to recover so the written material becomes more of a testimony and adds some reassurance that the methods suggested actually work. This is a self-help short read that I highly recommend if you suffer from any of the stated disorders.
Pages: 61 | ASIN: B08FKBZW8K
The National Coalition Against Domestic Violence (NCADV) defines psychological abuse as trauma to the victim caused by verbal abuse, acts, threats of acts, or coercive tactics
In “Sorrow to Shero,” Dr. Jeannita Bussle gives an honest look inside her experiences.
When the unimaginable occurs, she shares how she was able to forgive and heal.
Additionally, Dr. Bussle discusses the hard life lessons she has learned as a result of tragedy.
Although “Sorrow to Shero” shines a light on psychological abuse and the importance of mental health, it is also a vivid reminder that God always makes a way out of no way.
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